Tuesday, August 2, 2016

Invincible Winter & Two Longings

"I don’t do anything with my life except romanticize and decay with indecision. There’s a short circuit between my brain and my tongue, thus “Leave me the fuck alone” comes out as “Well, maybe. Sure. I guess I can see your point".

In the midst of summer, I found there was, within me, an invincible winter. And that makes me happy. For it says that no matter how hard the world pushes against me, within me, there’s something stronger – something better, pushing right back.


“I know I am but summer to your heart, and not the full four seasons of the year.” - Edna St. Vincent Millay
It’s entirely possible to listen to silence; it’s just that most people don’t. They aren’t interested or they forget about it or they think it simply isn’t doable. They don’t listen to how sunlight has a sound when you wake up just before dawn, or how blue is a soft sound, or how summertime is a sound. What you’ll find when you listen to silence is that it isn’t silence at all, but rather a cacophony of noises playing themselves in a decidedly melodic matter. Everything gets balanced until it cancels out entirely. Silence is not an absence, but a gentle presence. - Sean Glatch


"Do it or don’t. It’s amazing how many things in life are that easy - All the world is made of faith, and trust, and pixie dust."


“I wonder if the snow loves the trees and fields, that it kisses them so gently? And then it covers them up snug, you know, with a white quilt; and perhaps it says, "Go to sleep, darlings, till the summer comes again.” - 
Lewis Carroll
Life is a series of unlikely events, isn’t it? It certainly is. One unlikely event after another, adding up to a rich, complicated whole. And who knows what’s still to come?' I am suspicious of words. They do not interest me, they do not satisfy me. I suffer from the ways in which words wear themselves out. There’s something beautiful about keeping certain aspects of your life hidden. Maybe people and clouds are beautiful because you can’t see everything.


It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all - in which case, you fail by default. "My father said there were two kinds of people in the world: givers and takers. The takers may eat better, but the givers sleep better".
"Others may change us, but we start and end with family" - "The beauty of things must be, that they end." I wonder why I ever felt guilty about liking solitude as much as I do – because, although I’m often alone, I’m never lonely. I had two longings and one was fighting the other. I wanted to be loved and I wanted to be always alone.


"There was once a man who became unstuck with the world, and each person he met became a little unstuck themselves. He traveled only with himself, and he was never alone".- From the movie "Castles In The Sky"


"Everyone walks around with a part of themselves broken and bent out of shape, a little portion of themselves out of sync and crumbling thanks to the nature of loving and trying to be loved by other people".

You are beautiful. You have always been beautiful, and you need to believe that you are. Someone out there still hopes that just because love hasn’t shown up in a while, that it doesn’t mean love doesn’t exist.

Someone out there is waiting too. - Anonymous