While you might find me eccentricity strange, my zest of life is infectious in my own way. I hope I am able to capture the essence of life in a variety of short axiomatic phrases that celebrate life. I just don't want to “Ration My Passion.” no matter if at all it be there for a variety of different reasons. Restraining my passion to fit into a cultural mold or consistently limiting passion out of habit, focusing on the negative rather than the potential opportunities. In the process I am trying to learn how to limit my experience of passion. I would rather be more invisible to you, then myself.
I am sure it's going to be there for real long, I don't want to sound extremely negative or even positive, but it's that, I am kind of more then at ease being just myself, all by myself, & at peace with all that goes inside-out of me' ,trying to keep myself busy with things that often don't demand higher attention seeking expectations. I could be working, eating, sleeping more hours then usual & happily carrying on the tasks that I am supposed to no matter for good or worse. Some of them may be destined or obligatory that you cant shoo away or minimalist necessities to live.
I am so at ease being just with me,being by my side. I guess I have adjusted to the chores & chaos of my mental, physical & emotional attributes. I am not the only one complaining or sounding promising at all, if it might seem so, but if I did' I would rather keep it to myself, & nothing more then my very own self understands who & what & how I am. I might not be mingling much, or talking much, interacting with' but all I know, when I close my eyes, knowing that I came & I have to go' makes me realize about lot of things & people, that came in my life, the ones I've lost in past, present or shall in future that has taught me out of experiences as I grew, & thy shall stand beside me in all possible ways. I being at peace with myself & my soul wanting to rest in peace now & forever' seems to be the agenda for a life time, as far as I live, & beyond.
“The Time is Now.”
As of right now, in the phases that I keep shuffling between, I guess I feel more secure being the way it is, & I've started liking this "harmony of myself with me, inside-out" completely & deeply. I ain't being selfish or anything like that. It's not one of those mood swings even, It's just being at ease with the way I want it to be.
I might be the strongest & the weakest more often, trying to adjust & adapt ,no matter how sorrowful, troublesome or happy peculiar perceptions' I might abide by or go against. I shall be,the only one to my self, when it comes to do anything with judging, anticipating, reciprocating, perceiving, or coming to a realization whatsoever. & I'll be doing my bit. I hope people understand that, & don't fall apart misjudging me & taking me completely wrong & enjoy & take it normal & easy to the core, in the best or the worst.
“It is not only life, but the quality of this life.”
My passion for life (the way I live in existence) has made me realized, i don't need to have these useless, unnecessary conversations or meetings 'which seldom wast time on & lower your energy, enthusiasm & positivism with its vibes so negate or not necessarily might be of any good, then those greater ones in life, that might bear more fruits.
Learning from everything else, I have adapted myself to this staying quiet & alone phenomenon.
I still try to communicate & meet as much I could possibly do, whenever I can, when the need arise, so I am not "Finger on my Lips" all the time or "Locked Inside" forever kinds! ,since I know' there is a limit of & to everything.
Its important though to stay focused on the necessary that binds you through & through' or else, you could get carried away unbinding & unwinding the utmost necessary & the unnecessary.
Let no nuances & chaos break into my peace or let me go off the track, let we all learn how to demarcate & draw a line - the only way of keeping oneself peacefully safe ,sane & sorted.
Passion for life, for me, is one of the most powerful tools that have helped shaped the trajectory of my life. You may have your own set of passions, I have my own & I am going to do it my way, no matter what. You can stop me, but I wont be a failure - Anonymous.
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